benci korang yang baca blog ni. ramai tak pegang amanah. aku kata jangan cakap apa apa pasal blog ni, kau tunjuk jugak dekat orang. aku tampar kau nak? dah lama aku tak rasa hina macam ni. aku kata jangan tunjuk, senang, tu je, kau nak jugak tunjuk. apa masalah kau ha? pathetic sial menyampah aku. 

aku tak suka post dah dekat sini. sebab tu aku taknak bagi sesiapa baca lagi satu twitter aku tu. tak suka. kalau kau simpan sorang je takpe, ni tak, kena gak bukak mulut dekat orang lain. 

blah ah.

leaving this blog. bye.

happy 26th birthday nishikido ryo saaan the light to my fandom, the one who brought me into jpop world <3

i have a bestfriend. her name is adilah. i have a bestfriend. her name is izzy. i have a bestfriend. his name is hakimy.

i want to be friends with one girl who's so hard to reach.
yet i don't want to look too desperate.

i want people to know i can dance.
i don't want to go around bragging because i know there's still room for me to improve before i really show myself.

what am i supposed to do now?

am i supposed to just stay low and feel sad whenever people don't see my talent, or am i supposed to go and brag about how good i am? 

eugh.

it's called the 'state of depression' which i am trying to endure here.

i'm strong yes i know that.